Wednesday, February 25, 2009

A bit like my prom....

Let me just start out by saying, YES, I am excited about our impending bundle of joy!

But, I am also surprised at how much MORE excited everyone else is.

Pregnancy so far feels a bit like my prom.

I spent many years of adolescence dreaming about my prom. You read about it in books and magazines. You see the dresses in the stores. You watch it in movies. It is always made out to be such an exciting and magical night. A night to remember. I don't really know what I was expecting, but I do distinctly remember arriving at the prom and thinking "really? this is it? this is what I was waiting for?" Don't get me wrong, I had a great time. It was a very fun night. But somehow all the anticipation and speculation and imagination about what it WOULD be like, far outweighed what it was ACTUALLY like.

I feel the same way about my pregnancy so far. After 2 1/2 years of anticipation, speculation and imagination, the reality doesn't quite compare. Again, I don't know what I was expecting, but somehow it doesn't measure up to the book and magazine and movie versions. Partly I think it is because I feel great--hardly any morning sickness--so I don't really feel any different yet.

Now granted I know I'm only 12 weeks at this point, so I know this will all change rapidly, and by the time I give birth I KNOW I will feel a connection with this baby. But, I don't think I will feel as magical as I thought I would, just more real.

Just like my prom.


Mama Bear said...

interesting... everyone was so excited when we adopted and I was too just soooo overwhelmed - I am sure it will sink in when it becomes more real -- I always wondered why no one ever told me how hard it was to be a mom - I think we must forget how hard those first few months are -

Jo said...

What a great analogy. I think anytime you have such a huge build up to something that it can't help but not quite measure up to your expectations.

Love how you were able to express that so clearly!

Kristin said...

You know, pregnancy after infertility is a completely different ball game. Part of you holds back...afraid to hope, afraid to dream, afraid to have your heart stomped on again. It takes time to get excited and to allow yourself to enjoy it. {{{Hugs}}}


Marie said...

I am having a weird time accepting congrats. I say "Well thanks, its still very early"

Why can't I just grin and say "Thank you"

Mo and Will said...

Here from ICLW.

I like this analogy. Will be interesting to see how it feels as things progress! I'm sure as your body starts changing, your sense of things will also change. I almost wish others would quiet down so you could just enjoy whatever you're experiencing and feeling!



katery said...

i had a similar prom experience, after about 20 minutes my date and i were out of there!

Fat Chick said...

I second Jo - that is a great analogy. Two years is a long time to try, so of course it will take a while for the reality to set in. Congrats, though! Send some baby dust my way, please?!

Beautiful Mess said...

Great analogy! You'll have plenty of time to feel a connection with your baby and also to feel miserable ;o) Congratulations on your pregnancy.