Are you F***ing Kidding me?????

So not only is the "pregnant man" having a second baby!!!!
but now this....
Ugh!

What are the odds?

What are the odds that someone's best friend from high school and best friend from college and best friend from grad school would also experience infertility? Is it me or is that a weird coincidence?

Failing Miserably

I am already failing miserably at ICLW. Why do I have so much to do these days? Between work, house, crafts, friends, cats, and whatever else occupies my attention I find myself lagging in the blogging world. It is at times like these that I can't imagine adding a kid into the mix. I don't know how people do it. And the longer it takes us the more things we gain in our lives the more I am in awe of those who have kids.
At times like these I think maybe someone is telling me that I am meant to do other things with my life.
Be a perfect wife and homemaker.
Be a perfect aunt to all our nephews and nieces (blood related and not).
Be creative and a crafty entrepreneur.
Be a good friend, sister, daughter, grand-daughter.
Be me.

Nothing is better than Something....in some cases

Welcome all from ICLW! I've done this a couple times before and each time I get better at it. I haven't made it through a whole week consistently yet, but I always appreciate the little I do. One of these days I will find it in myself to be an iron commentor....maybe....

Anyway, as to the meaning of my subject line. Lately I have been grateful that nothing has happened for us so far on the TTC front. We've been "trying" more or less for over 2 years now and we've never had one BFP or false BFP or a miscarriage or anything. And as frustrating and disappointing as that has been, I am grateful.

I am grateful because I am currently watching one of my dearest friends in the world go through two miscarriages in the last year and it is so hard. She is a wreck and I am a wreck for her. And though I kinda appreciate having a dear friend to talk to about IF (as opposed to all my other dear friends who seemingly have gotten pregnant time and time again without any thought and now have beautiful children) my heart aches for her and I am grateful I haven't had to go through "something."

In my mind, having something happen in the TTC world only to have it taken away from you, to have your hopes dashed so abrasively, is much worse than to just have nothing happen month after month. For me, nothing gives me more hope. Maybe I am just fooling myself. Maybe my friend has more hope. After all, at least she knows she CAN get pregnant. She just needs to figure out how to make it stick. Maybe I'm just avoiding the inevitable. Maybe nothing is nothing right?

All I know is that I think my friend is brave and courageous and going through something that I don't know I could face as well as she has.

What do you think? Did you feel better or worse before you knew there was something wrong?

Question of the Day

How do you fix something when there is nothing wrong?

As you may have gathered from the question, all our test came back normal....So what's the problem?

I guess I like to torture myself....

Not much new here on the baby front...or whatever you want to call it.
I am still, however, torturing myself by making ridiculously cute baby onesies for other people.
I've got these all up on my ETSY shop, for those of you who were able to get one of your own (or knows someone who did).

That Time of Year Again

Yup, it's that time of year again. Time for the ole Annual Exam! Yipppeeee!

Actually, I really like my Gyno/Nurse Practitioner. She is very good. But, the appointment also marks two years (can you believe it?!?! two years!!!!!) of trying with no success. It also marks a point where we need to make some decisions. You know those pesky decisions I've been writing about for so long? Well, I finally need to make some.

Proceed with more testing with my regular doc and get a clear diagnosis?
Skip the middle man and go straight to the fertility specialist (which we really can't afford and insurance doesn't cover one bit)?
Just keep on the same path as we are now (if it happens, it happens)?
Jump over all pregnancy options and figure out how we feel about adoption and fostering?

I'm a Libra, so I labor over these kinds of decisions. It seems like every one has valid options that could work out for us. How do you know if you are making the RIGHT decision? What if you make the WRONG one?

Oy! Deciding what color to paint the bedrooms is prooving to be so much easier.