My company is becoming baby central. My coworker (and boss' daughter) just announced that she is also expecting. Just 3 or 4 weeks behind me. My other coworker and her partner have given themselves a deadline of April 15th to decide once and for all if they want to add kids to their family. And yet another coworker (boss' son) and his wife, after years of health concerns, are now officially trying.
It's going to be an interesting year...
Monday, March 30, 2009
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
A bit like my prom....
Let me just start out by saying, YES, I am excited about our impending bundle of joy!
But, I am also surprised at how much MORE excited everyone else is.
Pregnancy so far feels a bit like my prom.
I spent many years of adolescence dreaming about my prom. You read about it in books and magazines. You see the dresses in the stores. You watch it in movies. It is always made out to be such an exciting and magical night. A night to remember. I don't really know what I was expecting, but I do distinctly remember arriving at the prom and thinking "really? this is it? this is what I was waiting for?" Don't get me wrong, I had a great time. It was a very fun night. But somehow all the anticipation and speculation and imagination about what it WOULD be like, far outweighed what it was ACTUALLY like.
I feel the same way about my pregnancy so far. After 2 1/2 years of anticipation, speculation and imagination, the reality doesn't quite compare. Again, I don't know what I was expecting, but somehow it doesn't measure up to the book and magazine and movie versions. Partly I think it is because I feel great--hardly any morning sickness--so I don't really feel any different yet.
Now granted I know I'm only 12 weeks at this point, so I know this will all change rapidly, and by the time I give birth I KNOW I will feel a connection with this baby. But, I don't think I will feel as magical as I thought I would, just more real.
Just like my prom.
But, I am also surprised at how much MORE excited everyone else is.
Pregnancy so far feels a bit like my prom.
I spent many years of adolescence dreaming about my prom. You read about it in books and magazines. You see the dresses in the stores. You watch it in movies. It is always made out to be such an exciting and magical night. A night to remember. I don't really know what I was expecting, but I do distinctly remember arriving at the prom and thinking "really? this is it? this is what I was waiting for?" Don't get me wrong, I had a great time. It was a very fun night. But somehow all the anticipation and speculation and imagination about what it WOULD be like, far outweighed what it was ACTUALLY like.
I feel the same way about my pregnancy so far. After 2 1/2 years of anticipation, speculation and imagination, the reality doesn't quite compare. Again, I don't know what I was expecting, but somehow it doesn't measure up to the book and magazine and movie versions. Partly I think it is because I feel great--hardly any morning sickness--so I don't really feel any different yet.
Now granted I know I'm only 12 weeks at this point, so I know this will all change rapidly, and by the time I give birth I KNOW I will feel a connection with this baby. But, I don't think I will feel as magical as I thought I would, just more real.
Just like my prom.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Life and Death
I am feeling a bit of the circle of life this week.
A very good friend lost his battle with brain cancer this week. He was only 37.
We also received some not so good news about another member of our friend family who has been missing since November. It is too long of a story to get into, but needless to say it looks like perhaps some foul play is involved in his disappearance.
But even as we loose these friends we are expecting to bring a new life into the world shortly. Sometimes it doesn't make any sense to me.
A very good friend lost his battle with brain cancer this week. He was only 37.
We also received some not so good news about another member of our friend family who has been missing since November. It is too long of a story to get into, but needless to say it looks like perhaps some foul play is involved in his disappearance.
But even as we loose these friends we are expecting to bring a new life into the world shortly. Sometimes it doesn't make any sense to me.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Progress
So, I'm in my 11th week now and feeling great! I've been sooooo lucky not to have hardly any morning sickness. I've mostly been tired and I hate to say it...constipated...(more water please).
We got to hear the heartbeat last week, which was pretty amazing. It was only for a split second and I almost missed it because I was gabbing so much with the midwife, but W heard it right away and his face just lit up.
I told everyone at work last week and they are all so ecstatic. I am going to have a lot of support from my work family. It's almost like they are all getting a new grandbaby or niece or nephew for themselves.
I am having a lot of mixed feeling about baby and our future life with baby. I guess that is natural. I'll try and write about it some more this week. I'm going to try and do ICLW again. We'll see how it goes....
Here's my first belly shot at 7 weeks--pretty much no belly....just big boobs.
We got to hear the heartbeat last week, which was pretty amazing. It was only for a split second and I almost missed it because I was gabbing so much with the midwife, but W heard it right away and his face just lit up.
I told everyone at work last week and they are all so ecstatic. I am going to have a lot of support from my work family. It's almost like they are all getting a new grandbaby or niece or nephew for themselves.
I am having a lot of mixed feeling about baby and our future life with baby. I guess that is natural. I'll try and write about it some more this week. I'm going to try and do ICLW again. We'll see how it goes....
Here's my first belly shot at 7 weeks--pretty much no belly....just big boobs.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Just When You Least Suspect It!
I wasn't prepared.
I had given up.
I didn't even believe it at first.
But, for some inexplicable reason it WORKED!
IT WORKED!
I don't know why or how, but it did!
Unbelievable. After all this time....I can hardly believe it.
I had given up.
I didn't even believe it at first.
But, for some inexplicable reason it WORKED!
IT WORKED!
I don't know why or how, but it did!
Unbelievable. After all this time....I can hardly believe it.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Best Wishes for the Next Year
The passing of another year is often difficult when you are dealing with IF. It marks yet another span of time of no success and marks another year in which your chances of getting pregnant (statistically speaking) get smaller and smaller.
As difficult as it can be, I am choosing this year to mark the passing of 2008 by setting goals for W and I to make decisions about our next steps. And while I do not yet know if those decisions will bring us to parenthood or resolve us in our current happy, but childless, lifestyle, I'd like to relish a little in what we do have, which is some very cool nieces and nephews who do fill our lives with much joy (I included our furry babies as well).
So, Happy New Year to All! I hope this year brings some joy to those of you seeking it and some resolution for those of you who need it. We are blessed and I hope those blessings continue in whatever form they are meant to.
:) Cheers
As difficult as it can be, I am choosing this year to mark the passing of 2008 by setting goals for W and I to make decisions about our next steps. And while I do not yet know if those decisions will bring us to parenthood or resolve us in our current happy, but childless, lifestyle, I'd like to relish a little in what we do have, which is some very cool nieces and nephews who do fill our lives with much joy (I included our furry babies as well).
So, Happy New Year to All! I hope this year brings some joy to those of you seeking it and some resolution for those of you who need it. We are blessed and I hope those blessings continue in whatever form they are meant to.
:) Cheers
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
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